When Friends Attack

It is not a fun game.

So recently, I've slimmed down such that everyone that hasn't seen me on a consistent basis in the last 6 months has noted how "slim" I've gotten. I'm just about immune to the topic at this point which for me is good because I no longer wonder about what my real friends weren't telling me when I was larger or think to say anything but "thank you" and "I still have a ways to go" when they congratulate me or tell me that I've inspired them. It isn't because I'm not thankful of the compliments but because in order for me to maintain the personal-ness of this lifestyle change for me I can't allow external affirmations to make my head big becuase that would potentially lead to complacency.

Recently, I made a visit at my old job. As CeCe escorted me around seeing faces that I haven't seen in a while - some I love, some I like, some give me nightmares still...CeCe experienced the compliment train coming into the station...but apparently it stayed too long at the platform for her. By the end of the day she had wandered into a protective state of "well how big did they think you were before" mixed with anger, frustration, shock, and awe. I had to say a small prayer because at that time I think she would have clawed the next person who said anything to me about my current progress.

I think Janaan has had a similar feeling of "you better leave my friend alone" but because of her profession and natural skill - she handled it in a much healthier, reasonable manner that lead to acceptace and understanding.

I'm pretty sure my mother (who I love) wants to attack me when she thinks I'm doing anything that could hamper the progress I've made towards becoming her beautiful, slim daughter....and we aren't even friends LOL just friendly.

All in all...I'm glad people notice the progress, partly because I am a self loving person that enjoys people admiring me but the next time you go to compliment someone remember this advice:
1. Be thoughtful of your words: Even kind words can hurt if they are directed in the wrong manner - even if unintended
2. Be sincere: Because shock, jealousy and disinterest shows through easier than you think

While the only issue I have with self esteem is having too much - not everyone can say the same its then, that it matters the most.

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