6 months from now...

Given all the "fun" that is considered my life right now, CeCe says...think about 6 months from now.

Problem is...I can't envision 6 months from now. I can barely envision 6 mins from now which is not normal for me. Usually I can analyze and see everything from once upon a time to happily ever after...usually I can envision the end result so clear that it feels like I can reach out and touch it but for some reason, I am stuck in the "right now".

But let's see if I can "talk" myself into 6 months...

By the end of May (1 Month): my goal is to be 17lbs lighter. I was well on my way to this goal with my last diet jump start buttttt that kinda got derailed by pms

By the end of June/early July I want to be in a new weight class. Maybe I will have a two pack and be able to wear shorts that aren't athletic outside of the house.

In August I'm going to Jamaica (by any means necessary) - I don't want to be the fat girl on the trip which puts a lot of pressure because some of those going like Pep and Drow are in the size 0-4, 5'4 group so I'm automatically going to look like a giant.

At the end of the day...in 6 mins or 6 months I'm going to have to put on my big girl panties, make some adult like decisions, keep my faith in God that everything will work out for my good and push forward remembering that I am my worst enemy and He is my best friend and helping towards His goals for my life.

So here I am 6mins from before...rejuvenated and motivated to make it to 6months from now where I will be stronger, better, wiser and thinner than I am today!