To be or not to be...

Whether tis nobler to be fat and happy or skinny and irritated. That is the question.

I ask myself this every time I read my workout schedule and it isn't a rest night...and every time I see that 10min workout section on the workout because 10mins still should not hurt that bad...and every time I think about what working out is going to do to my hair....and every time I have to convince myself that sleeping is not the better alternative.

I'm still working on asking myself when I eat though, which I feel is a problem. My last trainer and every other fit guru always says you can't outtrain a bad diet. My diet isn't bad but I have a small problem with sodium - I love it and it loves the weight. I realized that is my problem when I can drop 6lbs on the scale from a good sweat and minimal water intake. My worst friend = water retention. It is apparent in my clothing sizes and from people who see me that I'm getting smaller, but seriously, I want the scale to go down.

All that said, my normal diet isn't really the problem...the problem is my cravings. I go hard on cravings once a month and it does damage like no other. I'm also a closet eater which is all types of bad since I live alone.

I'm going to go back to calorie counting in hopes to get this under real control soon. I have a life to get sexy for!