The Precursor

I was the kid that everyone loved because I had the fat cheeks, legs and thighs, curly hair and perfect little baby nose. Fast forward 28.7years and I have still have fat cheeks, legs and thighs... my hair isn't so curly anymore but my nose is still that same baby nose -mhmmm you read that right.

Now don't be mistaken - my only problem with self-esteem is that I have WAY too much. On occasion, like most women, I think about how I don't look like anyone on the magazines or on TV but self-hate does not live here anymore! There was a point when I didn't like my height because I was always the tallest kid but I like where I'm vertically positioned now - my horizontal portion is another story.

For reference - I am 5'9 and weigh XXX lbs - hey, I'm still a girl and that shall not be told.

I was watching "Say Yes to the Dress - Big Bliss" which I watch often - no problem. It definitely keeps me on my toes as a single woman who does not want to be the "big girl" at my own wedding (whenever that might be). After the standard two episodes went off - I got kidnapped by what is apparently a new show called "Big Sexy". Now I was on edge with Say Yes… because some of the women are clearly at a health risk and celebrating it but this show completely freaked me out. It was shortly after watching these two series that I realized that I – as lovable as I am; am the fat friend and my world crumbled.

Now by no means am I sloppy, all my fat is solid but I’m not shopping at 5-7-9 either. It was brought to my attention that I can’t completely take the title because the majority of my friends are 5’2 and the height difference cancels out the fatness – it still isn’t cool!  Honestly – my point in starting this movement is to decrease my weight/size and increase my health. I’m almost 30 and the only “disease” I have is asthma that I was born with… I reached a point in my life that God has allowed me to keep my health and I should stop trying my luck.

So…. Off to losing my toddler!